第 44 章
伊莉莎白料定達西先生的妹妹一到彭伯裏，達西先生隔天就會帶著她來拜訪她，因此決定那天整個上午都不離開旅館，至多在附近走走。可是她完全猜錯了，原來她舅父母到達藍白屯的當天上午，那批客人就到了彭伯裏。他們到了藍白屯的，便跟著幾個新朋友到各處去溜達了一轉，剛剛回到旅館去換衣服，以便到一家朋友那裏去吃飯，忽然聽到一陣馬車聲，他們便走到視窗，只見一男一女，坐著一輛雙輪馬車，從大街上往這邊來。伊莉莎白立刻就認出了馬車夫的號衣，心裏有了數，於是告訴舅父母說，她就要有貴客光臨。舅父母聽了都非常驚訝。他們看見她說起話來那麼窘，再把眼前的事實和昨天種種情景前前後後想一想，便對這件事有了一種新的看法。他們以前雖然完全蒙在鼓裏，沒有看出達西先生愛上了他們的外甥女兒，可是他們現在覺得一定是這麼回事，否則他這百般殷勤就無法解釋了。他們腦子裏不斷地轉著這些新的念頭，伊莉莎白本人也不禁越來越心慌意亂。她奇怪自己怎麼會這樣坐立不安。她前思後想，很是焦急，怕的是達西先生為了愛她緣故，會在他妹妹面前把她捧得太過分；她愈是想要討人喜歡，便愈是懷疑自己沒有討人喜歡的本領。
她為了怕讓舅父母看見，便打從窗前退縮回來，在房間裏踱來踱去，竭力裝出心神鎮定的樣子，只見舅父母神色詫異，這可更糟了。
達西兄妹終於走進了旅館，大家鄭重其事地介紹了一番，伊莉莎白看到達西小姐也和自己同樣顯得不好意思，不禁頗感驚奇。自從她來到藍白屯以來，總是聽說達西小姐為人非常傲慢，可是這會兒她只觀察了她幾分鐘工夫，就斷定她不過是過分羞怯畏縮。達西小姐只是唯唯喏喏，此外你休想再逼得出她一句話來。
達西小姐身材很高，身段比伊莉莎白粗壯，她雖然才十六歲，可是已經發育完全，一舉一動都象大人，端莊大方。她抵不上她哥哥漂亮，可是她的臉蛋兒長得聰明有趣，儀錶又謙和文雅。伊莉莎白本以為她看起人來也象達西一樣尖酸刻薄，不留情面，現在見她並不如此，倒放下了心。
他們見面不久，達西先生就告訴伊莉莎白說，彬格萊也要來拜訪她；她正要說一聲不勝榮幸，可是話未出口，就聽見彬格萊先生上樓梯的急促的腳步聲，一刹那工夫，他就進來了。伊莉莎白本來已經對他心平氣和，縱使餘怒未消，只要看他這次來訪，情懇意切，喜慶重逢，這般情景便使得她有氣也變成無氣了。他親親切切地問候她全家安好，雖然只說了幾句尋常話，可是他的容貌談吐，卻完全和從前一樣安詳愉快。
嘉丁納夫婦也和她有同感，認為他是個耐人尋味的人物。他們早就想見見他。眼前這些人確實引起了他們極大的興趣。他們因為懷疑達西先生跟他們外甥女兒的關係，便禁不住偷偷仔細觀察雙方的情形，觀察的結果，他們立刻確定兩個人中間至少有一個已經嘗到了戀愛的滋味。小姐的心思一時還不能斷定，可是先生方面顯然是情意綿綿。
伊莉莎白忙於應付。她既要明白在場賓客中每個人對她觀感如何，又要確定她自己對人家的觀感如何，還要搏得大家的好感。她最怕不能博得大家的好感，可是效果偏偏非常好，因為她要討好的那些人，未來之前都已對她懷著好感。彬格萊存心要和她交好，喬治安娜極想和她要好，達西非要討她的好不可。
看到了彬格萊，她一切的念頭自然都轉到自己姐姐身上去了，她多麼想要知道他是不是也同她一樣，會想到她姐姐！她有時覺得他比從前說話說得少了。不過有一兩次，當他看著她的時候，她又覺得他竭力想在她身上看出一點和姐姐相似的地方。這也許是她自己的憑空假想，不過有一件事她可看得很真切：人家都說達西小姐是吉英的情敵，其實彬格萊先生對達西小姐並沒有什麼情意。他們兩人之間看不出有什麼特別鍾情的地方。無論什麼地方，都不能證明彬格萊小姐的願望一定會實現。伊莉莎白立刻就覺得自己這種想法頗近情理。賓客們臨走以前，又發生了兩三件小事，伊莉莎白因為愛姐心切，便認為為兩三件小事足以說明彬格萊先生對吉英依然舊情難忘，而且他還想多攀談一會兒，以便談到吉英身上去，只可惜他膽量甚小，未敢如此。他只有趁著別人在一起談話時，才用一種萬分遺憾的語氣跟她說：”我和她好久不曾相見，真是福薄緣淺。”她還沒有來得及回他的話，他又說道：”有八個多月不見面了。我們是十一月二十六日分別的，那一次我們大家都在尼日斐花園跳舞。”
伊莉莎白見他對往事記得這麼清楚，很是高興；後來他又趁著別人不在意的時候，向她問起她姐妹們現在是不是全在浪搏恩。這前前後後的一些話，本身並沒有什麼深意，可是說話人的神情態度，卻大可玩味。
她雖然不能常常向達西先生顧盼，可是她只消隨時瞥他一眼，就看見他臉上總是那麼親切，她聽他談吐之間既沒有絲毫的高傲習氣，也沒有半點蔑視她親戚的意味，於是她心裏不由得想道：昨天親眼看到他作風大有改進，那即使是一時的改變，至少也保持到了今天。幾個月以前他認為和這些人打交道有失身份，如今他卻這樣樂於結交他們，而且要搏得他們的好感；她看到他不僅對她自己禮貌周全，甚至對那些他曾經聲言看不入眼的親戚們。禮貌也頗周全。上次他在漢斯福牧師家裏向她求婚的那一幕，還歷歷如在目前，如今對比起來，真是前後判若兩人。這種種情形，實在使她激動得太厲害，使她幾乎禁不住把心裏的驚奇流露到臉上來。她從來沒見過他這樣一心要討好別人，無論在尼日斐花園和他那些好朋友們在一起的時候，或是在羅新斯跟他那些高貴的親戚在一起的時候，也不曾象現在這樣虛懷若谷，有說有笑，何況他這樣的熱情並不能增進他自己的體面，何況他現在殷勤招待的這些人，即使跟他攀上了交情，也只會落得尼日花園和羅新斯的太太小姐們嘲笑指摘。
這些客人在他們這兒待了半個多鐘頭；臨走的時候，達西叫他妹妹跟他一起向嘉丁納夫婦和班納特小姐表示，希望他們在離開這兒以前，上彭伯裏去吃頓便飯。達西小姐雖然對於邀請客人還不大習慣，顯得有些畏畏縮縮，可是她卻立刻照做了。於是嘉丁納太太望著外甥女兒，看她是不是願意去，因為這次請客主要是為了她，不料伊莉莎白轉過頭去不響。嘉丁納太太認為這樣假癡假呆是一時的羞怯，而不是不喜歡這次邀請；她又看看自己的丈夫：他本來就是個愛交際的人，這會兒更顯得完全願意去的樣子，於是她就大膽答應了日期訂在後天。
彬格萊表示十分高興，因為他又可以多一次看到伊莉莎白的機會，他還有許多話要和她談，還要向她打聽哈福德郡某些朋友的情況。伊莉莎白認為這一切都只是因為，他想從她嘴裏探聽她姐姐的消息，因此心裏很快活。凡此種種，雖然她當時倒並不怎麼特別歡欣，可是客人們走了以後，她一想起剛才那半個鐘頭的情景，就不禁得意非凡。她怕舅父母追三問四，很想走開，所以她一聽完他們把彬格萊讚揚了一番以後，便趕快去換衣服。可是她沒有理由害怕嘉丁納夫婦的好奇心，因為他們並不想強迫她講出心裏的話。她跟達西先生的交情，顯然不是他們以前所猜想的那種泛泛之交，他顯然愛上了她，舅父母發現了許多蛛絲馬跡，可又實在不便過問。
他們現在一心只想到達西先生的好處。他們和他認識到現在為止，從他身上找不出半點兒錯處。他那樣的客氣，使他們不得不感動。要是他們光憑著自己的感想和那個管家奶奶的報導來稱道他的不人，而不參考任何其他資料，那麼，哈福德郡那些認識他的人，簡直辨別不出這是講的達西先生。大家現在都願意去相信那個管家奶奶的話，因為她在主人四歲的那年就來到他，當然深知主人的為人，加上她本身的舉止也令人起敬，那就決不應該貿貿然把她的話置若罔聞，何況根據藍白屯的朋友們跟他們講的情形來看，也覺得這位管家奶奶的話沒有什麼不可靠的地方。達西除了傲慢之外，人家指摘不出他有任何錯處。說到傲慢，他也許果真有些傲慢，縱使他並不傲慢，那麼，那個小鎮上的居民們見他全家終年足跡不至，自然也要說他傲慢。不過大家都公認他是個很大方的人，濟苦救貧，慷慨解囊。再說韋翰，他們立刻就發覺他在這個地方並不十分受人器重；雖然大家不大明瞭他和他恩人的獨生子之間的主要關係，可是大家都知道他離開德比郡時曾經欠下了多少債務，後來都是達西先生替他償還的。
伊莉莎白這個晚上一心一意只想到彭伯裏，比昨天晚上還要想得厲害。這雖然是一個漫漫的長夜，可是她還是覺得不夠長，因為彭伯裏大廈裏那個人弄得她心裏千頭萬緒，她在床上整整躺了兩個鐘頭睡不著覺，左思右想，還弄不明白對他究竟是愛是憎。她當然不會恨他。決不會的；恨早就消了。如果說她當真一度討厭過他，她也早就為當初這種心情感到慚愧。她既然認為他具有許多高尚的品質，自然就尊敬起他來，儘管她開頭還不大願意承認，事實上早就因為尊敬他而不覺得他有絲毫討厭的地方了。她現在又聽到大家都說他的好話，昨天她又親眼看到了種種情形，看出他原來是個性格很柔順的人，於是尊敬之外又添了幾分親切，但是問題的關鍵還不在於她對他尊敬和器重，而在於她還存著一片好心好意，這一點可不能忽略。她對他頗有幾分感激之心。她所以感激他，不僅因為他曾經愛過她，而且因為當初她雖然那麼意氣用事，斬釘截鐵地拒絕過他，錯怪過他，如今他卻決不計較，反而依舊愛她。她本以為他會恨她入骨，決不會再理睬她，可是這一次邂逅而遇，他卻好象急不待緩地要跟她重修舊好。提到他們倆人本身方面的事情，他雖然舊情難忘，可是語氣神態之間，卻沒有粗鄙怪癖的表現，只是竭力想要獲得她親友們的好感，而且真心誠意地要介紹她和他的妹妹認識。這麼傲慢的一個男人會一下子變得這樣謙虛，這不僅叫人驚奇，也叫人感激，這不能不歸根於愛情，濃烈的愛情。她雖然不能千真萬確地把這種愛情說出一個所以然來，可是她決不覺得討厭，而且還深深地給打動了心，覺得應該讓這種愛情滋長下去。她既然尊敬他，器重他，感激他，便免不了極其關心到他幸福；她相信自己依舊有本領叫他再來求婚，問題只在於她是否應該放心大膽地施展出這副本領，以便達到雙方的幸福。
晚上她和舅母商談，覺得達西小姐那麼客氣，回到彭伯裏已經是吃早飯的時候，卻還當天就趕來看她們，她們即使不能象她那樣禮貌周全，至少也應該稍有禮貌，去回拜她一次。最後她們認為，最好是明天一大早就上彭伯裏去拜候她，她們決定就這麼辦。伊莉莎白很是高興，不過她只要問問自己為什麼這樣高興，卻又答不上來了。
吃過早飯以後，嘉丁納先生馬上就出去了，因為上一天他又重新跟人家談到了釣魚的事，約定今天中午到彭伯裏去和幾位紳士碰頭。
Chapter 44
ELIZABETH had settled it that Mr. Darcy would bring his sister to visit her the very day after her reaching Pemberley; and was consequently resolved not to be out of sight of the inn the whole of that morning. But her conclusion was false; for on the very morning after their own arrival at Lambton, these visitors came. They had been walking about the place with some of their new friends, and were just returned to the inn to dress themselves for dining with the same family, when the sound of a carriage drew them to a window, and they saw a gentleman and lady in a curricle, driving up the street. Elizabeth, immediately recognising the livery, guessed what it meant, and imparted no small degree of surprise to her relations by acquainting them with the honour which she expected. Her uncle and aunt were all amazement; and the embarrassment of her manner as she spoke, joined to the circumstance itself, and many of the circumstances of the preceding day, opened to them a new idea on the business. Nothing had ever suggested it before, but they now felt that there was no other way of accounting for such attentions from such a quarter than by supposing a partiality for their niece. While these newly-born notions were passing in their heads, the perturbation of Elizabeth’s feelings was every moment increasing. She was quite amazed at her own discomposure; but amongst other causes of disquiet, she dreaded lest the partiality of the brother should have said too much in her favour; and more than commonly anxious to please, she naturally suspected that every power of pleasing would fail her.
She retreated from the window, fearful of being seen; and as she walked up and down the room, endeavouring to compose herself, saw such looks of enquiring surprise in her uncle and aunt as made every thing worse.
Miss Darcy and her brother appeared, and this formidable introduction took place. With astonishment did Elizabeth see that her new acquaintance was at least as much embarrassed as herself. Since her being at Lambton, she had heard that Miss Darcy was exceedingly proud; but the observation of a very few minutes convinced her that she was only exceedingly shy. She found it difficult to obtain even a word from her beyond a monosyllable.
Miss Darcy was tall, and on a larger scale than Elizabeth; and, though little more than sixteen, her figure was formed, and her appearance womanly and graceful. She was less handsome than her brother, but there was sense and good humour in her face, and her manners were perfectly unassuming and gentle. Elizabeth, who had expected to find in her as acute and unembarrassed an observer as ever Mr. Darcy had been, was much relieved by discerning such different feelings.
They had not been long together before Darcy told her that Bingley was also coming to wait on her; and she had barely time to express her satisfaction, and prepare for such a visitor, when Bingley’s quick step was heard on the stairs, and in a moment he entered the room. All Elizabeth’s anger against him had been long done away; but, had she still felt any, it could hardly have stood its ground against the unaffected cordiality with which he expressed himself on seeing her again. He enquired in a friendly, though general way, after her family, and looked and spoke with the same good-humoured ease that he had ever done.
To Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner he was scarcely a less interesting personage than to herself. They had long wished to see him. The whole party before them, indeed, excited a lively attention. The suspicions which had just arisen, of Mr. Darcy and their niece, directed their observation towards each with an earnest, though guarded, enquiry; and they soon drew from those enquiries the full conviction that one of them at least knew what it was to love. Of the lady’s sensations they remained a little in doubt; but that the gentleman was overflowing with admiration was evident enough.
Elizabeth, on her side, had much to do. She wanted to ascertain the feelings of each of her visitors, she wanted to compose her own, and to make herself agreeable to all; and in the latter object, where she feared most to fail, she was most sure of success, for those to whom she endeavoured to give pleasure were prepossessed in her favour. Bingley was ready, Georgiana was eager, and Darcy determined to be pleased.
In seeing Bingley, her thoughts naturally flew to her sister; and oh! how ardently did she long to know whether any of his were directed in a like manner. Sometimes she could fancy that he talked less than on former occasions, and once or twice pleased herself with the notion that as he looked at her, he was trying to trace a resemblance. But though this might be imaginary, she could not be deceived as to his behaviour to Miss Darcy, who had been set up as a rival of Jane. No look appeared on either side that spoke particular regard. Nothing occurred between them that could justify the hopes of his sister. On this point she was soon satisfied; and two or three little circumstances occurred ere they parted which, in her anxious interpretation, denoted a recollection of Jane not untinctured by tenderness, and a wish of saying more that might lead to the mention of her, had he dared. He observed to her, at a moment when the others were talking together, and in a tone which had something of real regret, that it “was a very long time since he had had the pleasure of seeing her –” and, before she could reply, he added, “It is above eight months. We have not met since the 26th of November, when we were all dancing together at Netherfield.”
Elizabeth was pleased to find his memory so exact; and he afterwards took occasion to ask her, when unattended to by any of the rest, whether all her sisters were at Longbourn. There was not much in the question, nor in the preceding remark, but there was a look and manner which gave them meaning.
It was not often that she could turn her eyes on Mr. Darcy himself; but, whenever she did catch a glimpse, she saw an expression of general complaisance, and in all that he said she heard an accent so far removed from hauteur or disdain of his companions, as convinced her that the improvement of manners which she had yesterday witnessed, however temporary its existence might prove, had at least outlived one day. When she saw him thus seeking the acquaintance and courting the good opinion of people, with whom any intercourse a few months ago would have been a disgrace; when she saw him thus civil, not only to herself, but to the very relations whom he had openly disdained, and recollected their last lively scene in Hunsford Parsonage, the difference, the change was so great, and struck so forcibly on her mind, that she could hardly restrain her astonishment from being visible. Never, even in the company of his dear friends at Netherfield, or his dignified relations at Rosings, had she seen him so desirous to please, so free from self-consequence or unbending reserve, as now, when no importance could result from the success of his endeavours, and when even the acquaintance of those to whom his attentions were addressed would draw down the ridicule and censure of the ladies both of Netherfield and Rosings.
Their visitors staid with them above half an hour, and when they arose to depart, Mr. Darcy called on his sister to join him in expressing their wish of seeing Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner and Miss Bennet to dinner at Pemberley before they left the country. Miss Darcy, though with a diffidence which marked her little in the habit of giving invitations, readily obeyed. Mrs. Gardiner looked at her niece, desirous of knowing how she, whom the invitation most concerned, felt disposed as to its acceptance, but Elizabeth had turned away her head. Presuming, however, that this studied avoidance spoke rather a momentary embarrassment, than any dislike of the proposal, and seeing in her husband, who was fond of society, a perfect willingness to accept it, she ventured to engage for her attendance, and the day after the next was fixed on.
Bingley expressed great pleasure in the certainty of seeing Elizabeth again, having still a great deal to say to her, and many enquiries to make after all their Hertfordshire friends. Elizabeth, construing all this into a wish of hearing her speak of her sister, was pleased; and on this account, as well as some others, found herself, when their visitors left them, capable of considering the last half hour with some satisfaction, though while it was passing the enjoyment of it had been little. Eager to be alone, and fearful of enquiries or hints from her uncle and aunt, she staid with them only long enough to hear their favourable opinion of Bingley, and then hurried away to dress.
But she had no reason to fear Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner’s curiosity; it was not their wish to force her communication. It was evident that she was much better acquainted with Mr. Darcy than they had before any idea of; it was evident that he was very much in love with her. They saw much to interest, but nothing to justify enquiry.
Of Mr. Darcy it was now a matter of anxiety to think well; and, as far as their acquaintance reached, there was no fault to find. They could not be untouched by his politeness, and, had they drawn his character from their own feelings and his servant’s report, without any reference to any other account, the circle in Hertfordshire to which he was known would not have recognised it for Mr. Darcy. There was now an interest, however, in believing the housekeeper; and they soon became sensible that the authority of a servant who had known him since he was four years old, and whose own manners indicated respectability, was not to be hastily rejected. Neither had any thing occurred in the intelligence of their Lambton friends that could materially lessen its weight. They had nothing to accuse him of but pride; pride he probably had, and if not, it would certainly be imputed by the inhabitants of a small market-town where the family did not visit. It was acknowledged, however, that he was a liberal man, and did much good among the poor.
With respect to Wickham, the travellers soon found that he was not held there in much estimation; for though the chief of his concerns with the son of his patron were imperfectly understood, it was yet a well known fact that on his quitting Derbyshire he had left many debts behind him, which Mr. Darcy afterwards discharged.
As for Elizabeth, her thoughts were at Pemberley this evening more than the last; and the evening, though as it passed it seemed long, was not long enough to determine her feelings towards one in that mansion; and she lay awake two whole hours endeavouring to make them out. She certainly did not hate him. No; hatred had vanished long ago, and she had almost as long been ashamed of ever feeling a dislike against him that could be so called. The respect created by the conviction of his valuable qualities, though at first unwillingly admitted, had for some time ceased to be repugnant to her feelings; and it was now heightened into somewhat of a friendlier nature by the testimony so highly in his favour, and bringing forward his disposition in so amiable a light, which yesterday had produced. But above all, above respect and esteem, there was a motive within her of good will which could not be overlooked. It was gratitude. — Gratitude, not merely for having once loved her, but for loving her still well enough to forgive all the petulance and acrimony of her manner in rejecting him, and all the unjust accusations accompanying her rejection. He who, she had been persuaded, would avoid her as his greatest enemy, seemed, on this accidental meeting, most eager to preserve the acquaintance, and without any indelicate display of regard, or any peculiarity of manner, where their two selves only were concerned, was soliciting the good opinion of her friends, and bent on making her known to his sister. Such a change in a man of so much pride excited not only astonishment but gratitude — for to love, ardent love, it must be attributed; and as such, its impression on her was of a sort to be encouraged, as by no means unpleasing, though it could not be exactly defined. She respected, she esteemed, she was grateful to him; she felt a real interest in his welfare; and she only wanted to know how far she wished that welfare to depend upon herself, and how far it would be for the happiness of both that she should employ the power, which her fancy told her she still possessed, of bringing on the renewal of his addresses.
It had been settled in the evening, between the aunt and niece, that such a striking civility as Miss Darcy’s, in coming to them on the very day of her arrival at Pemberley — for she had reached it only to a late breakfast — ought to be imitated, though it could not be equalled, by some exertion of politeness on their side; and, consequently, that it would be highly expedient to wait on her at Pemberley the following morning. They were, therefore, to go. — Elizabeth was pleased, though, when she asked herself the reason, she had very little to say in reply.
Mr. Gardiner left them soon after breakfast. The fishing scheme had been renewed the day before, and a positive engagement made of his meeting some of the gentlemen at Pemberley by noon.
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