勞教所每個牢房的牆上都裝有擴音器。
我被關在「後院」時，每天白天，它以撕裂耳膜的高分貝播放中共誹謗大法的宣傳；晚上，我被關進錄像室繼續遭受強制洗腦。
當時隔壁牢房有位弟子在絕食。「挾控」透露她已經頑強絕食幾個月了。每天早中晚三次，看守、勞教所醫生和「挾控」合力在牢房裡給她插胃管，強行灌食。
每次灌食前，看守都命令「挾控」把「後院」牢房的窗戶關死，然後將擴音器開到最大聲，以防止我們大法弟子在牢房裡聽到她們野蠻灌食時發出的聲音。
在黑暗又門窗緊閉的小牢房裡，整天整天聽著擴音器裡以瘋狂的高分貝播放誹謗大法弟子殺人的宣傳，有一瞬間我突然感到我要崩潰了！我再也忍受不了了！
這時我一下想起三大隊教導員和施酷刑的打手都對我說過的話：「我們才不怕你死了瘋了呢！到時我們就說是煉法輪功煉的！」
我馬上清醒過來，在心裡對自己說：「我決不能被邪惡折磨瘋！！我決不能給邪惡機會誹謗大法！！我一定要堅強！！不管多大的魔難，我一定要挺過去！！」（待續）
(英文對照)
Every cell had a loudspeaker on the wall in Chatou.
While I was in Back Yard, the loudspeaker ceaselessly blared out the CCP propaganda at an eardrum-tearing volume during daytime; and at night, I suffered brainwashing in the video room.
During the time, a fellow practitioner in the next cell was on hunger strike. I heard from the watching-inmates’ talking that she had been on hunger strike for a few months perseveringly.
Morning, noon and night, three times a day, the guards, doctors and watching–inmates force-fed her by inserting a tube into her stomach from her nostril.
Every time before the force-feeding, the guards ordered the watching-inmates to close the Back Yard cells’ windows, and turned the volume of the loudspeakers up to the maximum, attempting to prevent the other Dafa practitioners from hearing the sound the brutal force-feeding produced.
Being imprisoned in a dark, tiny cell where the door and windows were tightly shut, forced to listen to the propaganda blared out at a crazy volume over a loudspeaker that slandered Dafa practitioners killed people all day long, day after day after day, there was an instant I suddenly felt ready to break down! I couldn’t endure it anymore!
At the moment I suddenly recalled what the Third Brigade chief and torturers once said to me, “We are not afraid at all even if you die or become deranged! We would just tell people Falun Gong did that to you!”
I instantly regained my senses and told myself, “I must in no circumstances be tortured to derangement by evil!! I must in no circumstances give evil a chance to slander Dafa!! I must be tough!! However tremendous the tribulations, I must break through them!!”
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